My Little Slice of the Internet

Hey y'all!  I have decided to start blogging about my journey, simply because I need a way to express myself and thought you might all enjoy seeing the world of BDSM through my eyes.

When most people think about BDSM they think of dark rooms, chains, whips, and all the darker aspects of it.  Don't get me wrong all of those are apart of the culture but there is a lot more to it and that is what people need to see.

To begin I guess the best place to start is more about me.  I am a 20 something, wife, mother, daughter, friend, business owner, and submissive.  I have been married to the love of my life for 10 years and we have two wonderful little humans we created.

My submissiveness actually began a long time before I even knew about BDSM. It really started when Hubby and I started dating. Our relationship moved really fast at the beginning.  We started "dating" April 8, 2005 and He moved in with me five days later, and at the time I was 17. From the time we started dating, I only wanted to make Him happy.  I wanted to be the girlfriend/lover that He needed, which by the way I sucked at.

Here is a little background info about Him. He was raised "old" school, the women stayed home and tended the house, raised the kids, and just generally did what ever the "Man" of the house said without ever questioning it.  He was raised to be a "Dominate" man even without the knowledge of what BDSM was. 

So here I was a 17 year old girl who wanted to make a guy, who is a "Dominate" person by nature, happy by all means necessary, but yet at the same time I was stubborn, hard headed, didn't listen, and still wanted to live my life, make my own choices, and do as I pleased. Him and I, both still in our teens, did the best we could. We fought hard, but loved harder.  No one thought we would ever make it, but boy did we prove them wrong.

Fast forward to today...as I am sitting here reflecting and typing about the past, I see all my flaws and imperfections, most of which I am still working on because, I am human after all.  We have just recently re-entered a Dominate/submissive dynamic and I am more determined than ever to be the submissive wife that He needs. 

How we have ever made it this far is beyond me, but here is to another 10 years.

XOXOXO
Mattie